His Sweet Sweet Love

 

Why does God love us so much?  

When I sit down to think about how God is working all the intricate details of my life together, I can’t help but think why me? Why do you care so much about me? Like Psalm 8:4 says,  

                                       What is man that You are mindful of him,
                                         And the son of man that You visit him? 

One thing I know for sure is that I don’t deserve it; his perfect unending love for me.   

When my relationship with God started getting deeper, it was because I wanted to see some prayers answered. I used to be frustrated and full of anxiety because of what I was praying too see take place in my life. But as I grew closer to God, his love filled me more and more. My relationship with God went from being about what God  could do for me, to what God was doing in me. His love overwhelmed me, and I learned to have peace even when my prayers seemed like they weren’t going to be answered. I learned to be filled with joy, wake up with a smile on my face, and say “Good Morning Lord,” simply because of who he is.  

The love of God brought contentment to my spirit. Then suddenly, God answered my prayers and my relationship with him still hasn’t changed. I haven’t strayed away because my prayers have now been answered. The same love that saw me through and molded my heart to be more like his, is the same overwhelming love I feel everyday.  God used the time when it seemed like my prayers weren’t  going to be answered, to process me. Now not only have my prayers been answered, but I am filled with his love, which was really the best thing to have received in the first place. I also realize that God didn’t answer my prayers just for me. I know he wants to use me to spread his love and to be a blessing to others. My relationship with God isn’t only about what’s he doing in me, but what he’s doing through me. 

I pray that Christ will live in your hearts by faith and that your life will be strong in love and be built on love.  And I pray that you and all God’s holy people will have the power to understand the greatness of Christ’s love—how wide and how long and how high and how deep that love is. Christ’s love is greater than anyone can ever know, but I pray that you will be able to know that love. Then you can be filled with the fullness of God. 

Ephesians 3:17-19 

I don’t understand why he loves us so much but I know it’s the best thing I have ever experienced. I know I can never go back to the way I used to be. Circumstances can change. More prayer request will come up and there will be more things to stress about.  But the love of God can never be shaken in my life.  

Thank you for loving me God. Thank you so much for meeting me where I was. Thank you for processing me. Thank you for your love. 

The Posture of Surrender

She walks into a room with so much confidence.

She’s such a presence.

Her confidence is encompassing, her beauty is captivating.

Every step that she takes it like she’s walking the winner’s circle.

Her style precedes her inner strength.

Her smile exudes the warmth of a 1000 hugs.

She has a soul so generous, that it’s impossible to fathom how it continues to give.

She has a soul holding a heart filled with so much love,

that it’s all she thinks of, so it’s all she speaks of.

Her laughter is a clearly a creation of the master.

But you really should hear her past life.

This woman is a product of a marvelous disaster.

She was lost at a point with no direction for her future,

Cut open by the world, left in need of sutures.

Desperate to hold on to control of her life,

She continually neglected the calls of the Lord.

Sure of the outcome of her own success,

her own plans for what’s next, her own steps to rest,

she stepped into darkness, and one mess after the next.

Sure she’d find her own way through,

she put God aside for only Sunday school.

Left with open wounds, trying to find healing in the world,

she wrapped herself in layers to try to hide the open pain.

But she was left like a child wrapped in a blanket of uncertainty.

A child crying out for the love, the love of her father.

She stepped out darkness, and into his marvelous light.

Took off the layers, and let God operate on the pain.

Went from a Sunday school relationship, to a

I can’t live without you, I can’t breathe without you,

God I need you at center of everything, you are my everything relationship.

She allowed herself to be processed by him, broken for him,

built up by him, she learned to trust in him.

She stepped away from the world and into his word.

She let his peace fill her beyond human understanding.

This woman has learned to let God be the foundation of her soul.

She’s learned to let God be her father, her healer, her comforter, her master,

she’s let God be her all in all.

Yes, she walks into a room with so much confidence, and her confidence is encompassing,

and her beauty is captivating, and her style precedes her inner strength,

but it wasn’t without process.

Her outward appearance is a reflection of her heart,

The gentle and quiet spirit the Lord has worked on in her,

The incorruptible beauty she gained when she let him in.

Beyond giving her life to Christ, I’m talking she let him in everything.

Threw her hands up and said Lord my life is yours.

She’s still a work in progress, but she knows the Lord will see her through.

Pulling her deeper, processing her through his songs, through his word, through his love.

This woman was once controlled by the world’s splendor,

but only until she learned the posture of surrender.